this has been a worst year for me in my life... nothing goes smooth, everythings goes wrong.. Worst is that the one i love most left me... really a unmemorable year for me...
been real busy last few weeks... celerabratin meixian and yizheng's birthday, friends came to singapore for tour, zhiming and his gf's anniversary and so on... alot pictures taken but am unable to post them up cuz zhiming's gf till now still yet to email me the pics... a happenin month for me but feels very lonely...
Spent a LARGE SUM of $$$ on both of my PCs.. upgraded both to so-call godly stage... and also bought the Call of Duty 4 under the influence of edmund.. it's a damn good game, juz cant stop playing it.. btw, am currently top rank already.. feel abit bored, waiting for ppl to call me for challenge.. haha..
i'm going to take up bike and car license after i get my pay.. am saving money now for my new car at the end of 2008.. hehe...
anyway, i wont be going to canada anymore due to some problem in immigration side.. i'm unable to apply until i finish my job in army.. and even till then i apply, i need to wait ard 2 years till i get reply if i'm being accepted... so next year after i leave, i'm gonna start business with my dad, he's now planning and working on it.. so next year after i leave the force, it's about time the business starts..
out of sudden my mom wans to add a dog in the family.. they are lookin for one now... i'm still tryin my best to pyscho them to buy a pomeranian... already have a name for it in my mind but was rejected immediately... the name was -> "hotdog".. sound nice rite? just dunno y they cant accept it...
Officially started my physical training... am going back to my FIT body built... Reason? no for any one or to attract any gals, juz for the purpose of tattoos.. i'm gonna fill my body with arts.. i love tattoo.. i dun care wat u guys thinks.. i dun give a damn on how u look at me also.. haha... below are the tattoos in my mine tht i wanna have it on..
Friday, December 28, 2007
Tuesday, November 27, 2007
Loneliness
Hai~~ Just went to see "her" blog again.. i keep telling myself not to see her blog but i juz cant control myself and keep reading it at least once per day.. everytime seeing new post of her being so happy wif her bf, i feel so heart pain.. even if tht's so, i still cant stop myself from readin it... i dunno y... till now, everynight still havin a hard time slpin... whenever i closed my eyes, her image just appears... i juz cant forget her... i still love her... watever things i do now, keep remindin me of her... feel real heart pain...
6yrs nvr celerbrate christmas alone... this comin christmas is my first festival alone... i dunno how am i going to survive thru it..
To all those couples out there... treasure wat u hav and secure it... dun be like me... it's too late to regret now..
I still remember one of my friend use to tell me this.. What ever happens, Life goes on... till now i'm still livin memories... i still LOVE her...
6yrs nvr celerbrate christmas alone... this comin christmas is my first festival alone... i dunno how am i going to survive thru it..
To all those couples out there... treasure wat u hav and secure it... dun be like me... it's too late to regret now..
I still remember one of my friend use to tell me this.. What ever happens, Life goes on... till now i'm still livin memories... i still LOVE her...
Monday, November 19, 2007
Hyper Tired...
Thought after NDP can have a good rest.. but NO!!!! now, kenna OPS till 23Nov... wah lan... they really wan my life ar?? i'll die early... too many stuff to do this few weeks... i really tired liao... i really going to be crazy liao... but this weekend quite enjoyful... cuz got friend come to singapore then most of my ingame friend went for outing... really enjoy alot... too bad all jokers dunno how to use camera one... whole 2 days outing only took 1 pic... very jia lat leh... after this week i'm a free man lo... can enjoy lo.... wahahaha....
Friday, November 2, 2007
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Lucky today i was only half day work... reach home ard 2pm.. when i open the door i was SHOCKED... my sis is trying to commit suicide... she turned on all the gas at home close all the window... she told me something happened between she and her bf... i damn heart pain seeing her like tht... she's slping now... whole day got to look after her... love really can hurt alot... you wont understand it unless u encounter it before... SAD~~
Wednesday, October 31, 2007
Turning point
Finally my life is reaching a turning point... A MAJOR turning point... after went thru so much shit in my work, finally i get to post to somewhere relax, no more midnight calls from office, no more weekend burn, no more meeting and OT till super LATE night.. at last i'm free... but.. ALONE.... "she" seems very happy wif her new life now... much much happier then when she's wif me.. hai~~ wat to do? i'm just a lousy bf... nvm~~~ now my life is changing... dunno is it from good to worst? or worst to good... but now all i waiting is for the reply from migration side... once confirm, my new life will begin... maybe it's gonna be worst then now.. who noes??? but i tell myself 1 thing... this is my final chance... i got to go all the way out...
but 1 thing for sure is, no more relationship is gonna happen in my life again... dun trust love anymore.... now the only thing i trust is MONEY and Result...
Nothing else matters....
Devil within me is coming out... no one will wan to c it... but too bad... that's me... no more hiding inside.. i'm gonna release all out.. in order to success, i'm gonna be a Devil...
but 1 thing for sure is, no more relationship is gonna happen in my life again... dun trust love anymore.... now the only thing i trust is MONEY and Result...
Nothing else matters....
Devil within me is coming out... no one will wan to c it... but too bad... that's me... no more hiding inside.. i'm gonna release all out.. in order to success, i'm gonna be a Devil...
Thursday, October 25, 2007
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